As I get older, and more tasks are put upon me I grow. That is always a wonderful, and sometimes confusing time. I have to protect myself from the negative people in my circle that are permanent, but that does not mean I have to either live with or without them. I have to just deal, but not sacrifice my happiness. I also feel myself evolving, and if you even take notice to something like that in life consider yourself blessed.
First of all, my new little boy is doing just fine. I'm about six months along now. It's been a great and easy pregnancy and I am so thankful for that. He's kicking at the moment letting me know he's doing well. I am not really craving anything or having problems. I go next week to the OB for blood work. I am trying to get my head right for what's to come, but you can never plan fully.
My other kids, most of all Gia, have been almost constantly sick. Gia went to the doctor the other day and her white blood count was 20,000. What the crap? She also still had strep throat. Dylan is better, and if Anna would only stop putting mess in her mouth she would stay straight.
This weekend, I am gonna attempt to move back into my apartment. I have everything just about fixed up. I need a calm, sterile environment. I am going to try to get some schooling ready in July and get my online services up and running. Gonna take some time and work, and I got to be patient.
The one thing I am not going to put up is people coming in my space and either trying to take over or bullying me. This time is not about relationship or parenting. It's what I worked for and what they continue to try to destroy. They in fact need to be destroyed, but that's not my purpose. I just have to handle things as they go. I got to work on my goals, income, but most importantly being the best Mother I can be. Period.
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