Lonely Being Kid Free

You know you would think I would be all chill and what now, but I'm lonely, bored, and about ready to go to bed. I have been looking through college stuff and got it all ready to fill out online. I just hope they let me have the rest of my pell grant. Going to try to start in August. By then I'll have a little couple month old baby, and not sure where I'll be, but I got to get moving in a better direction. I choose Urban Farming and going to try to attend a college in Arizona. If that doesn't plan out, I'll just get my booty back to a 9-5. I have to do that anyway, but I would rather go with some hope behind it. I know I am meant for more, and I don't want to say or tell my kids that I gave up and never tried. That is just not acceptable. I think everyone should at least to try for their dreams. We are meant for so much more than just a normal life. I am hoping the kids will be back soon, and I get some time in with them before the real normal settles in. There will be school, cub scouts, girl scouts, basketball practice. We will be adding church stuff as well. Moving will be my next goal. Well I'm overload for now and need to get some sleep. Little one is thinking he or she is gonna put me on a sleep schedule. Everyday around 1pm I get so dang sleepy and I usually can get Anna to lay down. The mornings are the worst. Well let's start with nights. I have to take a sleep aid to shut my mind down. Then I don't want to get up like I need too in the morning. Gonna try it tonight with out it and see if I get some sleep. Probably not, and you really don't want to be pregnant and chasing three kids. Lordy Me!